So I have a PC, a Mac Mini and my iPad Pro M1 (yey) all set up on two old glass desks, against the red wall with the sex-handprints still all over it. Its crap. I mean it all works fine, and the individual tech items are fine but man the wall and the floor and the rug and this fucking room do my head in. I need to make a change, but this is all going to have to wait till next year till I get some more space in a new place.

I really hope it all comes together, give me six months and hopefully I’ll get there. It doesnt really help that Ive spent the last few hours watching office tours of peoples sweet ass ‘working from home’ setups. Sigh.

We cannot change the past. Our present is determined by what has happened before and what we expect to come in the future. Our future is based on the path we travel now, before, and the path of everyone else around us from the beginning of time.

Free will, therefore, is an illusion.

I’m dealing with a recent family loss, I cannot change what has happened. I move forward because I know it’s my path.

It still doesn’t make it any fucking easier.

Summer is a bitch and I hate it. That is all.

I’ve even invested in a pair of shorts, I’m not sure the world is ready for that one but I blame you global warming, thanks Obama!

Pray for me, I’m so tired. I don’t want to have to deal with the people on this planet anymore. Thanks.

Survived the first COVID jab, which is good I guess. Not so good was the pain in my arm and the reminder of the fatigue over the past couple of days but thankfully it’s wearing off. Lymph nodes under my arm feel slightly swollen but this is apparently normal, hopefully not a bit of cancer…. I mean, I dont want to get COVID again but cancer is very much tied for first place of the C words I dont want to wake up with one day.

I’m sure it will be fine.

I have twitter but I rarely check it, it’s more of a ‘something I do sitting on the toilet’ social event to see what’s going on in the world while I have a few minutes to myself with nothing else to do. COVID still doesnt seem to want to leave me alone so, when bored, I hop on and have a look.

My email provider, Protonmail, has had a downtime this morning – on a Monday morning, ffs – and I expressed my exasperation at not being able to receive important emails (due to the above health issue). Now credit where credit is due, they fixed the issue within a couple of hours and all seems fine, but the mob mentality of those jumping to respond was just something I guess Im not used to.

We are still working on the issue. At this time, we have narrowed it down and are working on a resolution. We apologize for the issue and will have another update in approximately half an hour.

— Proton (@ProtonPrivacy) February 1, 2021

I know everyone is entitled to their own opinions and that’s fine, I accept it. Say what you want, Im thick skinned! I guess it was just the rapid influx of messages saying that ‘you’re wrong’, then the replies to those defending the end-user, and the replies to those on the other side of the argument – mental!

I think I’ll just go back to being an occasional viewer on the toilet 🙂

Not too long after the last post I came down with a cold and COVID. It was awful. Now after almost two weeks of being isolated I can legally go out and exercise to see whether or not my lungs would explode or hold up to the task of walking around in fresh air.

Thankfully all was fine. Just a short walk around the neighbourhood and then home. I’ve been off work (obvs) and I feel strong enough now to return next week should all remain well.

I cant lie, it’s been super depressing during lockdown anyway but then to be hit with COVID out of nowhere was just too much to bear. I live with older relatives who unfortunately contracted it from me but we are all doing much better now. I really hope I never catch it again, but its one of those things (like the common cold) that it seems will be here to stay from now on. We can only hope that the vaccines, whenever they manifest for our age groups, will lessen the spread of the illness. Hopefully…

I’ve been looking at the video tutorials on Linode and they’re really good now, a raft of new tutorials over the last month or so has really picked up my knowledge on hosting and toughening security.

This was so easy but makes a lot of sense, so long as I now never lose my SSH key my site should be a lot more secure.

This is great – I use a 1GB Nanode for my NC instance but this means I now have 250GB storage and 1TB of transfer just by hosting the files on Object Storage instead. Awesome! It’s more space and transfer than I will ever need but I suppose that’s the best part – I also wont ever be going over my allowances and that’s good peace of mind.

Linode is awesome 🙂

So I use WordPress here, and WordPress gets a lot of flack for being bloated with plugins, speed being crap, security being rubbish etc. I’ve been playing with Ghost CMS on the side and it is so incredibly limited. The admin backend has very few options, the expectation is that you’re going to have a lot of background in modern coding to get it running with some kind of third party coding software to tweak till you’re happy.

Thats great, if you want to do that. I don’t.

This really is a site that looks great, to me, works great, for me, has a lot of customisation features that I enjoy and it ‘just works’.

It’s old and bloated, but so am I. I keep the plugins to a minimum and the site is always up to date from a backend standpoint. Linode’s hosting is great and they keep the VM up to date, I just don’t see what the problem is. Ghost is really quick, uses modern json which I’m sure if I spent a few months going through tutorials and online classes I could get the hang of. But that really seems like soooo much work that I don’t need to do with WordPress.

So, if you want to use Ghost or anything else and you love it, great, if you want to use WordPress and love it, great. Just don’t be such a fucking cunt about it, k?

🙂

I really just felt compelled to write something because this is a website that costs money and I havent added anything in ages.

Covid, urgh, work, urgh, family, urgh, relationships, urgh, etc… its just all urgh. This year has been a complete dumpster fire but on the other hand I know Im lucky to still have everyone around me who matters, to be employed and still have my physical health even though my mental health is shot.

My life is basically 50% work, 25% sleep and 25% either being so tired I wish I was back to sleep or just drinking to either forget or remember. Its not good. The hope is that next year will be better once the vaccine comes out and hopefully doesnt turn us all into horrible zombie mutants or give us chronic illnesses later in life.

Nothing much is going on, its really just the grind until Xmas and getting that over with, then kicking off the new year and hope it’s better than this one.

If anyone actually visits and reads this, stay safe.

Also, I really like this picture, its really nerdy.